Van Gogh Gay Couple

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Biography in English/ Biographie en français

In English:

 

For years I did what I thought I had to do. It just became… “Necessary”. Then “Necessary” became consuming and then consuming became life sucking… Yet, even though my life was being stolen from me I was still afraid to stop.  Crazy!?!I was driven by fear’s constant “what ifs”. What if  I stop and we don’t have enough money – What if  people get angry with me – What if others tell me I’m wrong – What if  I can’t do anything else??? The list goes on and on…

 

From a spiritual perspective – fear is not of God (I am not christian though, my God is more a private abstract God far from any religion) – or rather, I find God often telling me in scripture »> DO NOT BE AFRAID! Does that mean I throw all caution to the wind? No, but it does tell me that my logic and my life choices are better determined by my faith than they are by my fears.

So what did I do? Well, I started with the idiom “life is short” – this disarmed and unveiled the ugly cycle I had been drawn into. Next – I prayed, received confirmation, faced the “what ifs” and ultimately chose life – that is – the things I love including; my God, my family, my friends, my art and many other passions as well.

I am aware that life isn’t always about what we want but, be wary because it can become all about what we are afraid of.

So today I am celebrating abundant provision, true opinions, and above all, the fact that I have my life back!

~ Happy day to you all

Geo

ps: this text i made mine with one change (God) and it is originally here … because I felt like I could totally have written it, every word I agree…

 

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Geo : What am i doing? from the begining (2009) I express my view through all the influences of painters, photographs, models and sculptors of any time.

People often tell me that my paintings and my ceramics are interesting and have a kind of beauty in them, well I hope that it’s true for all those  who have them at home: I sent more than 500 artworks all around the world already, all of them you can see on my websites

What i am looking for during the time I create something is to take out — outside of myself — this kind of skill I discovered I have and that I can’t put word on it… I have it very deeply indeed from always but I manage to take it out of this deep myself only when I use the tool of male erotism and sensuality… I don’t analyse anymore this process, but I notice it all along my creation with a sort of pleased incapacity… my brushes or my knives always follow one way: my attraction for some representation of male body, of some models or some other painters artwork (very few) and the emotion that all this brings with it, in fact without this “male nude” impulsion I have the feeling that I won’t do anything good…

I often ask myself the following question since I began to paint three years ago: what make me shivering, what exalt me so much always in life, what bring such strong desire in me ? i don’t even ask myself WHY anymore, but I answer again and again this question without word in painting,  it’s a sort of answer just in 500 pictures… Of course this answer comes from this deep me, from my childwood too, my teenwood and finally my present grown-up life. There was a time when I looked for myself and then I faced the “plural desire” which the society displaid in this case … I have also the project to analyse my life under a sort of open biography with the main  role of erotism (see the textin french following) and of a kind of sexuality  without limit which has been my life till 5 years ago…

What do I mean by “plural desire” ?

I think about the homosexual desire and the image of it by the media today : for the media to be gay it’s like to be a prostitute who sleeps here and there every single time and I had a long time problems to put myself out of this image because everything bring me back to it… but I succeed thanks to some people, some friends I think and some events in my life which made me think a lot about what I am doing do do in this world finally… in my case, this plural desire stopped me during a long time to be stable and to know the complete affection of one single person… be sure that I succeed finally but only after a long work on myself which manage to go far from this… — let say– image of the “gay bitch” which the society with the media still shows today through the mirror of the gay stereoptype, despite the rare partnership and isolated gay mariages which are still controversal and don’t manage to make forget this image in my opinion and to stop the rejection of many other people (even gay people) because it is a terribly negative image and most persons follow it blindly being a caricature of it… That doesn’t mean that gay mariage is bad at all! don’t misunderstand me: for the moment till the homo-erotic sensuality will express and show itself by this plural desire acting here and there, gay mariage won’t be a reality. For my little story this plural desire finally finished and managed to metamorphose in one unique desire, but this was the end and the price of a very strong emotional choc that I lived, a sort of electro-choc which happened in Serbia (in Kosovo and at the Bulgarian border)…

En français:

Je dois revenir en arrière et décrire le fil depuis l’adolescence ou même depuis l’enfance jusqu’à aujourd’hui. Dire comment j’étais devenu à l’âge de 30 ans  une sorte de machine inhumaine malgré mes rêves d’enfant… Je ne regrette pas ces années qui ont été une sorte de libération nécessaire mais qui ne pouvaient continuer sans une suite dangereusement inhumaine où je me serais perdu : si je devais compter les rencontres que j’ai eu en l’espace de 12 ans, entre l’âge de 24 ans et de 36 ans, entre mes débuts en ville – seul dans un 20 m² à Toulouse, jusqu’à la fin à Prague – lorsque j’étais en colocation quelques jours pour m’apercevoir que ce n’était plus possible, j’atteindrais le nombre de…  mille partenaires! Je me suis aperçu que toutes ces renconttres ne m’amenaient à rien, elles se ressemblaient toutes puisqu’elles se résumaient toujours à la même jouissance, au même jeu sexuel ou bien elles avaient perdu ce piquant que je leur avais trouvé à partir de l’age de 17 ans… Au bout du compte, douze ans de rencontres n’avaient pas réussi à effacer cette solitude qui m’accablait déjà à l’adolescence, voir même enfant.

J’ai rencontré A. cela a duré cinq ans mais on n’a pas été prêts : j’avais 27 ans et lui 23. Depuis trois ans, quand je l’ai rencontré, je commençai à peine à vraiment m’ouvrir à la vie. J’habitais au centre ville… Cette ouverture n’avait lieu qu’alors malgré mes multiples essais dès mes 17 ans. A 17 ans, sans avoir la majorité légale pour le faire, j’ai quitté le berceau familial  pour aller sur les routes rencontrer la vie…  pendant ces sept premières années où je voulais être un adulte jusqu’à mes 24 ans, je suis resté dans la maison familliale en essayant de voyager le plus possible… (à suivre…)

INTERVIEW

Geo: Ce que je fais depuis le début (2009) c’est exprimer ma vision à travers toutes les influences de peintres, de photographes, de modèles et de sculpteurs de tous les temps : ma vision de l’érotisme masculin.

En lire d’avantage…

Touching up…

To be or not to be… abstract ?

The other day I was thinking about abstract painting and cubism…A. asked me already two times why I am not painting abstract art at the place… My answer is the following…

The bathers (oil on canvas) has been repainted and its name his Van Gogh but it s not finished already (29th of may 2009)

Here are the steps of my painting